I feel like my mind is so chaotic that I need help. When I do sth with my family or other (let's say "unpopular") friends I feel unfulfilled and have the urge to do that activity with someone who has a high value in my life (beautiful popular woman, popular friends).

I also feel like I need to compare my life with these high-value people and adjust it to them in order to feel happiness. Example: the hot girl hangs out with her friends while I travel with my family I have the feeling that I'm unhappy and miss out all the "high-life" she's having.

How do you find joy in your life without thinking about women and how happy others are in what they are doing?