Hey guys! You can skip this first part, it's just a little bit of background.

I'm trying to take action since may (wow, it's about 8 months) and I've known about this for even longer time. I started out as real hardcase in social terms, I'm still nerdy but at I'm making progress. In the begining I couldn't even approach, then I could in daytime, then clubs messed me up, made me cry and lose faith, after that I couldn't approach at all, anywhere, my crippling nerd AA came back so now I'm kinda doing this from the begining. I've become better than I was even with such difficulties and I'm really happy with that but I've had this problem of not making baby steps to get in the flow state and it was just too much for my psyche so...

Currently I'm doing 3rd part of TofuTofu's guide - actually the part on approaching. I skipped afew steps because I've been a bit busy but I did most of them (like writing your valuses or standing straight and dressing well) at least partially in this 8 months.

Ok so about the night:

It was fucking -15 celsius degrees (possibly feeling over -20) last (friday) night but I said fuck it, I have exams so this weekend is for pimpin and some cold isn't going to stop me! I'm living with my parents and they're a bit over-protective especially for my age (I'm 20 so they should just chill out) so I had to bear with them discouraging me of going out and I went out anyway (Fuck yeah success and victory over excuses and cold). If anyone knows what I'm talking about then I'd appreciate any advice on dealing with that kind of parents.

I went out with my wingman friend. Of course clubs were dead at that hour (midnight) because of cold but we just waited a bit and got back to our "favorite" cub which was near sausage-fest (very bad girl to guy ratio) and is often visited by "PUAs" (guys who think they are). We chill a bit, both stiff as fuck. The I go and approach my first set of HB4-5s (hot, ugly or anything in between! Plus the club is rather shitty place for student's so classy girls are really fucking rare). I just came in and said "Hi! What's your name?" And then introduced myself, then the same to second girl. My wingmen came in and left quickly while I bantered with the first one, it was boring convo but hey, I'm doing something. "My" girl was investing in me with her questions and trying to keep convo but I wasn't attracted to her and well, it had occured that her breath wasn't good plus her friend was bored so I ejected. My voice is so fucking quiet that I can barely communicate in NOT so loud club, I'm asking you guys on tips about that!. When I passed her shortly after she smiled and her eyes lit up even though some guy was talking to her, it made me remember I don't need super game to be "fuckable" for "usual/ normal" girls.

Then I chilled again and got into stiff mindset. My friend approached HB4-5 (againt) girls and told them that I want to meet them but I'm shy (well I had AA and it was his way of making me do something) and they were pretty unreceptive, actually they were VERY unhappy about something. I approached few minutes later with "Hi! I'm..." but they just looked at me and that's it so I told them very very stupid line about them being queens of snow and just laughed my ass off at awkwardness of this situation.

Then same story again, waiting, getting stiff (excuses like: I have noone to approach, sausage-fest and guys approaching, oh no so many to compete with, on no theres a guy, oh no shes doing whatever). I started getting loose with my wingman and laughing at the whole situation of so many guys and some funny dressed/ looking people (not in a mean judging way, just laughing). I approached another girl (HB6, maybe slightly above) who was sitting by herself and was playing with her phone. "Hi! What's your name?", her face expression was one of I don't know what but it was a happy smile with eyes lit up a little bit combined with shock. I started talking some not very smart things like "Are you shocked because I look 16 or what?" (I look 17 on average). She barely heard me but she said she's shocked because "she doesn't know me"... So I was like "yea, now you do, isn;t that how people meet?" Funny thing is that her face expression was almost the same for the whole time. I ejected with not very smart line (Just noticing I'm trying to justify some of my actions or situations and I think it's stupid behavior).

So yeah, I did 3 out of 10 approaches I planned but I did them. Kinda happy.

Important things I need advice on! * How the hell do I speak louder? I try using diaphragm and use all my strength of voice and it's still quiet * Any advice on my approaches? I'm sure I broke eye contact but I still kept it as much as I could, same story with standing grounded. I just remembered I forgot to smirk. * How can I learn speaking in less dull way? My voice is dull, no spikes of tonality etc. * I know what is Breaking rapport tonality but I can't do it, connected with the point above * Any advice on first minutes of conversation?

Thanks for any advice and input!!! I'm going out in 3-4 hours so if I get any I'll try using it!