Saturday in SE Asia here, last day at hometown so decide to have a good blast night out before leaving city.

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Somehow supposed to go gaming at venue1,but was feeling bit socially down so decide watch some good football at venue2. Sat down eyed 3 pretty girl. Hit off minutes later with them, all are laughing at my joke(I tried not to be try hard just natural banter). Note I'm not feeling social honestly. So is all low energy exchange conversation with subtle negging and kino. Went back second time half hour later and they initially cold shoulder me but open to me later laughing at my jokes. I honestly can't tell am I being a clown but I know I kept a cool posture and say exaggerated shit. Felt like coolest guy in room

Here's where I fuck up, overestimated myself and didn't tried to get phone number when group of girls are high energy with me on my second try opening . Just later when they bout to leave I ran in tried to get phone number but blown off harshly in front everyone.

Friend mockingly said did you scared them off? " I downplay shrug off, but was hurt inside. Like that as if is my first blowout ever.

Determine not to let bad night do me bad I tried to went to venue 1 chat some girls. But could tell I'm already got that failure stuck in my head. All my set was medicore at best later on the nightI just couldn't for life of me motivates myself to open more setmore charismatics fashion. I was that miserable guy masking behind being social. So decide to call it a night off. Pat myself I would do better next time and just review where I did wrong and could done better —----- Fuck it, nobody knows how hard pickup is. All they see is the glamour shit. But when you fell, you fell real hard like hitting the floor with flat face hard. I know this is just a bad night, I overestimate myself and next nightout will be better.

I will pick myself up. Let the pain sink in, I will become better.