Alright guys, i'm trying to work on myself and get out there meet as many girls as possible. Thing is i'm 20, and still have my V-card.

Now usually that wouldn't be some complicated fix, get out there, ask tons of girls out, escelate and fornicate. But my emotional baggage runs INCREDIBLY deep and it's causing a big gap between where i am and where i wanna be.

Essentially i can't shake the mindset that it doesn't matter anymore. Like sure i could loose it but losing it in your 20s+ makes absolutely no difference. You've lost your chance for fufillment, you're a loser for life in dating even if i sleep with 100+ plus girls in my life. Had to lose it in high school or it doesn't matter. Obbiosuly i can see how this is toxic.

Secondly my threshold for what condones "losing it" is incredibly high. Can't be someone you met online, can't be someone you asked (has to be implied), doesn't count it i don't finish, doesn't count if she doesn't finish, doesn't count if she didn't love it, doesn't count if she regrets it. It just goes on and on and on. And i know i'm not gonna be able to get out there and start experimenting until i get over these mindsets. Any tips?

Essentially, because i never dated in high school i feel like i never got the complete high school experience. And now that I've missed mt chance i feel like i'll never live a fufilling dating life.