Sometimes when Im dating I end up forgetting some of the new things I try to internalise and work on.

I know nothing external (sex/girlfriend) can fix something internal, so I shouldnt have a need to get with any of them. I know that I have seduced women by relaxing and being direct before, so I should just continue to be direct and not people please.

Yet somehow, there is a date from time to time where I just fall back to where I was a few years ago. It could be because I know this one from way back then, but it still annoys me after the date, because I know that I am changing out of fear, for something I dont need to fear.

How can I get better at internalizing these principles?