I am 26 years old and I have never experienced anything sexually with a woman. I am recovering from a porn addiction (no porn, no masturbation for 3 months).

One of the main triggers for the porn was a sensation of belonging. When viewing attractive women, I get really relaxed overall and just calm. This relaxation then allows for my libido to function.

But it is short-sighted. Because after I masturbated, I end up crashing and realizing my isolation and lack of progression. Eventually I start to think that porn watching is similar to meeting real attractive women. I spent all my energy finding more and more porn when I was a teenager and most of my 20s instead of actually engaging with women.

Since I have cut out the porn, my sex drive has flatlined. But it is mostly due to visualization caused from removing the influence of porn + masturbation. General touch has increased significantly. I was standing in line and a woman bumped into me and said "sorry" gently next to me. I do not know why, but just that touch was really soothing and calming.

I then moved out of my parents home but unfortunately I am living a hermit lifestyle. I cannot seem to get past the flatline to go out into the world and socialize. I am mostly stuck inside day after day after day.

I do not even really want sex. I just want to feel that comfort of touch with women. I feel that if I can focus on my own self-development, I can attract what I want.

However, I have this sensation that I am too old and too far behind. That I have missed the cut off. And that sensation is another "trigger" from the porn. But because I have zero references other than porn to my sexual energy, I feel demotivated.

What would you suggest to gain experience?