Ok I know that title’s misleading but ever since I got out of high school of course I upgraded my appearance since I’m out of that hellhole of AP classes and whatnot. Unfortunately it’s gonna sound like I’m bragging for most of this post but I believe I’m a pretty good looking 19 year old Asian male as many girls have approached me in college and slid into my DMs which makes everyone think I’m a fuckboy. Well the thing is, I never really had a serious relationship most likely due to my high standards comparable to me since I am very active and exercise everyday, am in computer science major at a top 50 global ranked university and have a decent background from the place I grew up in. But I don’t know why I just still can’t find the right girl or give into even having my first kiss and having sex. I’m extremely outgoing and social and hit up clubs and stuff which everyone I meet would have never guessed that I’m in computer science. My friends are from a wide range spectrum too, from huge nerds to like dropout crackheads lol. I get along with people easily and people say it’s my flexible and calm yet funny personality.

I’m really just not sure why I don’t enjoy my young years and I feel like I am restricting myself for a serious relationship (like even for my first kids) despite all the girls that are after me. I have even asked a lot of girls numbers, instagrams, etc but never ended up really doing much with it. Maybe at heart I’m too honest and should just let it go? I’m not sure, this post is everywhere and if anyone can share a similar experience, or loosen up this stress I’m causing on myself would be appreciated. Thanks for your time, and sorry again if it sounds like I’m just bragging.