I feel like I'm hitting a brick wall regarding AA. to preface this post I'm just going to clarify that I have pretty severe AA to the extent where even when I'm drunk I'm pretty afraid of approaching.

To really pinpoint the feeling its the dread of feeling ashamed that I cant bear, especially if I have friends next to me or I worry about people I know being at the party and witnessing me completely crash and burn.

The point of my post is this: I know I shouldn't feel shame, I know I shouldn't feel dread, I know rationally that I am good looking, intelligent, have a nice smile and so forth. but knowing doesn't seem to translate to believing, to understanding it, to making it obvious and part of my being. how do I deal with rationally knowing that I am great, that woman should be all over me, that I have no reason to care and so forth, but not believing it when the moment comes.