I know, I know what you guys are thinking. This fucking guy, but I never felt this connection/emotion with someone before. I remember it like it was yesterday. I walk in the break room and bump into a very, very, pretty Hispanic girl. I have a thing for the senoritas but this one was different. We both gazed into each other's eyes in a very natural manner which wasn't forced. I felt very blissed out and just took in the connection we shared without breaking it. She blushed and looked down, back up and then smiled. I kept holding the eye contact and then sat down. I was practicing eye contact back then and got very good at it. Shortly after that, she left the room and a few moments later I saw her coming back down the hall staring at me and putting up her hair in a bun. I have no idea what that gesture meant but I knew that was a courtship signal so the very next day I walked up to an introduced myself to her. After that, we began talking about whatever was relevant at the time. We would only see each other for 3-5 minutes due to our schedules being off. I kept building rapport with stupid shit like talking about her 8 shots of coffee that she gets constantly. WHICH IS WAY TO MUCH for her size.

A few weeks after that I found out that she had been a beauty queen for some sort of big Hispanic event. I thought that was pretty dope and now I'm talking to her and I'm just some fucking dude who works a lame ass part time job. I'm sure she has tons of guys chasing her. I just kept telling myself to remain grounded and not get in my head. At that time, I started to take The Hot Seat At Home By Tyler Durden and got completely rid of my ego well almost. I learned how to detach my ego while I talk to girls and other people and it was pretty fucking awesome. I could express emotions without there being a related context. I started to then read things aloud such as acting scrips to get into character so I can better understand my emotions and draw upon certain things when I want to express myself around a girl. I got so good at it that I can just switch back and forth from being present to an emotional state.

I talked to this cashier today and it felt so natural. She started to giggle a bit and all I was doing was showing intent and being congruent with my character. Now that is super important and you should always try to be aligned with your character by just letting things out. You'll know if it doesn't feel right because you will have to think about. Things need to be natural. I fucked up today and used my ego to try and hook the girl from work into my life with photography. She wasn't really into photography too much and I could tell. I literally felt that my intent wasn't lined up properly with my thoughts words and actions. My body language and my vocal tonation were off. This is advanced stuff and once you won't have to use ego based actions to get the girl you want. I know she probably didn't care about what I said too much cause I wasn't all there. I told myself directly after that, WTF MAN! YOU'RE IN YOUR HEAD! Right after that, I got a very strange emotion and it almost felt like butterflies were flapping around in my chest. That was the first time in my life that I ever felt that and it might be due to me being more present. I am taking my time with this girl because I wanna teach game and not be tied down to one person.