I should start by telling a little bit about myself. Male, 23, brazilian, living with parents, don't have a car, 4th year electrical engineering, kinda poor, very socially stunted (seriously, I can't have a interesting conversation to save my fucking life, not even with my own brother, always the same old boring subjects), kissed a girl for the first time at 22 (met on tinder, she was a 5 at most) we had sex two times and thats the extent of my experience with girls. Im fairly fit (been lifting for 2 years but not a lot of results), have been told i'm cute (no, it wasn't my mom), but i'm short (170cm 5'7" - 70kg 154lbs) and also look like i'm 18. Let's not forget the acne, always there.

Anyways, three weeks ago I went to my second party ever (something like a rave), and even though i'm a nerd I like to experiment so I had quite a few beers and other drinks, and I took an ecstasy(?) pill I got from a friend. Every single one of my friends were kissing some girls, tried to approach a dancing girl, was rejected, felt like shit, 3am, was ready to drink my ass off and get really fucking wasted to try and feel.less bad, when this cute girl is passing and starts dancing in front of me and looking at me, I "dance" too and touch her waist, she asks "do you also want to make someone jealous?" and I say "no, but that's what i'm here for". She says she wants some water and I start following her. Something something, she got in an argument with another girl, shit escalated, I try to get her out of there, we go to the bathroom, she cried, we kissed, then kissed some more, shits getting lit, she invites me to her house, the logistics fucked up (she had a ride home, I kinda chickened out (kill me)), I got her insta, went home. Next day we talk a bit, I get her number. Keep on talking on the phone (very little and very bad, I suck at texting). I say I want to meet, she says she does too, a few days later we meet for some juice, arms heavy, we went to a lake nearby and talked a bit, moms spaghetti, we kiss. It was good.

We met again this friday, went to her house (nobody was home), we had a lot of fun but as expected I suck at escalating so nothing sexual, though it got pretty hot. She's 20, much richer than I am, she's the same height as I am (probably 1 or two cm taller), she's beautiful, funny, very confident, works hard, she has loads of friends, I could go on...

I have no fucking clue what attracted her to me, and kept her interested this far, but i'm soo scared of losing her interest, can you guys help me out?? During our time together I almost always just fill the void in conversations, i'm never the one making a statement or saying something funny. I don't know what frequency to text her, what to say to her, what she likes to hear, what she expects from me, etc. How do I make a conversation more personal? What are good.subjects to talk about in a romantic way? How to verbally escalate? How do I.say that I really like her without sounding desperate (which I kind of am)?

Its a lot of questions, but I'll be thankful forever if you can answer only one, or just give general advice, suggest other threads, whatever. I just feel like a deer in headlights, unable to move, to take a step in a direction.

I know it's only three weeks and we've only met twice, but I really like her and I would like to show her that I have some value, that I will add something good by being in her life. Do I have a chance??

Obligatory English is not my first language.