Had social anxiety most of my life due to being raised in a home with two extremely disabled siblings as a triplet with two loving but partially apathetic parents. I've had MANY girls approach me and flirt. Holding myself back too long and I'm tired of it. My potential is there to be a better person but I've been too scared to do it.

Never got laid in highschool due to not knowing social cues and people bullying me mentally and making me feel inhuman.

Never got laid in college due to the process of finding myself and realising the depths of my depression and social issues. I was an Accounting major and school took up most of my time and energy.

Freshman year - Met the wrong people. Screwed up the right ones.

Sophomore year - Went abroad to London for 4 months and abstained from having sex as it was the first time I felt human again. Had at least a dozen opportunities. Some were crazy, some I didn't take advantage of but keep in touch.

Junior year - Suffered from extreme depression after coming back. Home life was shit, my mind felt fragmented.

Senior year - Bounce back a bit, still dealing with issues but I felt I strengthed the relationships with the few friends I had. Made out with many girls and fooled around but didn't complete the act as it didn't feel it was the best option at the time with the specific people. I still dreamed about the confidence I had in Europe.

Now - Depression came back full swing. Ruined a few friendships, massive hairloss, still job hunting. However.

I am strong. I am caring & compassionate. I am charming and attractive hair or not. I have hope.

The bartender at work fucked a girl I was building the strength to talk to. I'm taking life by the balls. I'm.better than this and my life experiences and the people I've met prove this.

I'm done living a life swallowed by my depression. I'm not living in my memory of how free I felt in.Europe. I can be that person again, I can be better.