so theres that one girl that keep popping up in my head like unfinished business lol it pisses me off cause i know i could’ve done something if i just played the game like i usually do.. if i ran my usual shit, it would’ve worked but i didn’t cuz i felt something weird

the thing is i couldn’t even use the game on her, not cause i was scared but i just couldn’t haha she felt different before i even met her and i don’t even know why, might be idealisation because shes raw and different from others so i held back.. overthought and let it pass

now it’s stuck in my head not cause i’m simping but cause i hate that i didn’t even try my best... she’s got this grip on me and she doesn’t even know it. now i’m wondering do i go back n run it right or just let it stay a mental loop until i forget it?