I lost that friendship because I was needy and annoying, and we no longer had anything in common. I have no friends or social admirers because I need to actually change myself and find some direction in life. You cannot just expect these things to fall into your lap. You have to become the best man that you can be, or at least actually make the continuous effort.

I have no companions in my life because I ultimately sabotaged myself and squandered the past several years doing the bare minimum.

In the end, the quality of my life comes down to whether or not I did the work