So I've been doing pickup the last 6 months or so and I've had pretty decent success. Mostly when it comes to hookups. But Ive noticed that I am mainly attracted to emotionally unavailable women and the "good ones I blow off" So basically I am having a bit of an existential crisis where I really feel I dont think I love anyone but my son and idk if I'm capable of love. I kinda feel like the peach scones lyrics "I love the thought of being with you OR MAYBE ITS THE THOUGHT OF NOT BEING SO ALONE!"

I really want to take a step back and examine my own philosophy and really learn who I am. Also in the process of seeking counseling.

I'm just confused on what to do with the women I am seeing. Do I just cut them off or give them an explanation of my situation? This is the part that confuses me. There are a few I'm very interested in, but again I feel it's for my own selfishness and not because I actually give a shit.

I understand this is complex and i am not trying to have a pity party, I'm just in a new spot in life. This community has helped me a ton with seduction, but I'm hoping there are some people who have some answers after the seduction happened and relationships are blossoming.

Thanks!