A coworker of mine tried to hook me me up with his wife’s friend who works in nursing for a large hospital. She’s mid-20s (like me), makes good money, no kids (I think), etc.

We talked a little over text but she didn’t excite me or intrigue me in any way. She gave me the impression she’s just looking for a sucker. Probably tons of student loan debt, etc. I invited her to the beach with me for the fuck of it, she declined, worrying it could be an “awkward long ride if we didn’t hit it off”. I just kinda shrugged it off. I don’t think in terms of awkward or not awkward anymore since I am 100% comfortable with myself. Anyways, I politely accepted her suggestion to instead catch lunch today and just talk a bit.

Well, I had a great time at the beach yesterday in a deep meditation and today I just wasn’t feeling it so I just stopped replying. Nothing crazy, but I value being single too much and don’t even enjoy the mingle (always get the sense there’s some kind of game being played when talking to women). She was playing it safe through text, but I figured I’d try to throw her an easy bone and let the good vibes roll if she was down. I haven’t mingled in a while but it felt like I was being slow-walked and I’d rather just spend the $120 on a decent hooker and blow my load then call it a day. But we’re obviously looking for different things.

Feel kinda bad cuz I stopped letting girls down a long time ago ever since I went my own way, but it is what it is. Had an incredibly lazy and beautiful Sunday to myself. Got some errands done then came home and watched some Ancient Aliens and 300. Just thought I’d share.