I just ended a relationship of 8 months after reading many stories and advice posts from this subreddit. I am happy to say that i have just swallowed the pill and am on the road of becoming an Alpha Male. My ex (who was my first everything) had a significant double digit body count and that bugged me but me being a white knight beta trusted that she would never do anything to hurt me because she “loved” me. Earlier this month we were having significant issues and decided to take a break to work on each other individually. Technically we weren’t together but she promised me that she would not start talking to anyone because she want to “work on herself for me.” Boy was she a lying whore. I found a tinder conversation on her phone talking to some random guy about her wanting his BBC deep inside her to make her cream, how she was getting wet thinking about it, calling him daddy, etc. (she admitted to having jungle fever in the beginning of our relationship but me being the beta i am totally ignored the one of many many red flags) When i confronted her about it she acted totally confused (cue the ASD) like she did nothing wrong and how she was just so sad that we were together and just wanted to feel some kind of connection. She also a psychology major and now that i’m freed i’ve noticed how controlling and manipulative she was and she would always play the victim. She was raped a few times and opened up to me in the beginning of our relationship how she was into BDSM but would constantly do LMR so the whole relationship was a toxic mess but the sex was so good. There would be times where woman would eye fuck me and then she would start a whole ass argument out of it even though i didn’t do anything wrong but we all know that just the guilt talking. I’m very thankful i’ve found this subreddit that saved me from being another lost beta in this fucked up world and am looking forward to my journey to being the prize to be won instead of treating another whore like a queen.