Background: Beta in my 20s but through a TON of hard work turned alpha by age 30. Had a great run, and then caught oneitis at 35. Now married 7 years, no kids. B+ marriage with one glaring issue (see below). Very well read but could spend more time lifting.

Issue: I have not actually wanted to fuck my wife for years (although we have sex once a week on avg.) and I CANNOT figure out why.

Her: she was a 9 when we met and now in her mid 30s she’s still a solid 8. She is a good person; never did me wrong. She is basically well-adjusted (for a chick anyway). Pretty good in bed and wants sex often. Her amount of ball busting is relatively reasonable for a 7 year marriage. There is definitely no good reason not to fuck her.

Me: I am healthy (no ED, testosterone is fine, no physical issues). I am not gay. I do not have a fear of intimacy; whatever the fuck that means. I want to fuck every other woman on the planet, all of the time, just not her. The Madonna/Whore complex is definitely not the problem. I WANT, to want to have sex with her!!! But I’m just not interested.

Question: Could this be a matter of narcissistic supply? I know that this would make me a total douche bag, at best, but I also know that being a beta in my 20s fuelled a compulsion to prove myself by getting hot women. I thought I got over that but maybe not. A case could be made that as my relationship with her grew more serious, and as she eventually met everyone I knew and I had established her as my wife, my sexual interest in her fizzled. I just don’t know why it was the sexual desire that went away and not something less pleasurable. I still care about her, willingly spend time with her, and put up with her nonsense. If I’m still willing to do all that, why wouldn’t I want to fuck her too and at least get some physical pleasure out of it? I also know that if we separated tomorrow, the desire for her would be back in an instant.

Does this narcissistic supply shit really exist and is this what it looks like?