My LTR of 5 years moved out roughly 2 months ago. We had some differences in our life plans I had a hard time coming to terms with, like having kids, and some of things I wanted, like having more time to myself. It logically seemed like the right thing at the time.

She was tagged in a photo with another guy today and it tore my heart, this huge sense of overwhelming loss has come over me. I was not expecting to feel so hurt over it, despite the fact I'd even found some romantic interests myself that I'm having a hard time really being intimate with.

I loved a lot of things about this girl, she had a lot of respectful qualities (family, respect for authority and father figures, sex) I fear (oneitus?) I wont find. We started having difficulties when she wanted to know is whether I loved her, and for some reason I was having the hardest time saying it. I just stuttered every time about something I loved about her, not loving her. I'm not even sure why.

It feels like ever since I've become more knowledgable about red pill concepts, my heart has grown colder and have a hard time coming to terms with it. It's like my capacity to love has been taken from me.

Part of me wants to go screaming back "I love you, and I'm willing to figure out what it takes to work this out," knowing full well the challenges I'm up against to keep it working (in a red frame). While the other part of me says don’t be so stupid, you’re just being a little bitch.

At 35 and the peak of my accomplishments I feel like I lost the one thing that sort of mattered.

Anyway, just looking for perspective from the red pill community. Am I just catching some feels I need to look past? Am I being pathetic by telling her I really do love her and that it hurts me to move on?