I've watched some videos about hitler yesterday. I think killing innocent people is evil and bad but I can't help but to be impressed with that power. Conquering lands, leading people, killing people or ordering to kill people would feel pretty good.

Essentially over the course of history, it is what men do. We take each others' land and resources by force and power. We are told that it is evil to kill people and it is good to be obedient for the sake of maintaining order. Many of us are perfectly capable of being savages and torturing each other. Majority of women have rape fantasies. Guess why? Evolution. They are used to get raped back in the caveman days.

It seems like war, fighting, killing, raping and everything in between are the things that make men feel most alive. When you are fighting you put everything on the line. When you gain, you gain by destroying the other. You are literally giving your utmost performance in every way possible. When you live, you feel it. When you fuck, you feel it. When you eat, you feel it.

I'm fucking bored of civilization. Work, food, sex, living, how I spend my time and life. It is really restricted and boring and superficial. Rules everywhere. Men are not supposed to be this stagnant and restricted. Why? Evolution.

So war excites me. I probably like my neck too much to do anything about it.

Am I the only one thinking this way?

What is really important to you? Are you fighting for something? What do you fight for?