Okay so this is a little strange because i don't really want her back and haven't spoke to her in 2 years, she dumped me because I lost my temper over some shit and called her a dumb cunt. She was a quality girl, maybe a 7.5 - 8 on looks but a solid 10 on personality and intelligence.

I've dated at leadt a dozen girls in the last 2 years probably but i'd just not manage to develop a real interest in anyone beyond sex and that too i've been losing interest soon after, I want a real relationship, I'm done playing the field and all that stuff, gets boring after a while, with my ex I experienced some ideal shit for a while and I think that's spoilt me for everyone else. It's gonna be impossible to find someone like her and the last I know of her she moved to another country...

It's not like i'm depressed or something, everything about my life is great but I just feel like there is one thing missing and it's the ex or someone like the ex.

This might sound lame as hell but its the little things like how excited I'd be to meet her and speak to her on the phone etc. I haven't felt my heart beat fast for woman since her. I really want to feel like that again...

My best friend said the redpill subreddit might have some good advice to give and if not, i'm actually considering visiting a shrink...lol

So brothers, what can I do to get myself outta this rut?