I've been a lurker for quite some time, almost half a year. As usual a LTR situation brought me here. TRP Sidebar is being read at the moment, although I admit that I have been cherry-picking the information here. Been a blue-pill guy all my life (25 right now),always believed that I am somewhat special and that "destiny" has something good for me in the future. After lurking around here and seeing a common theme of "nice guy/blue pilled guy" traits and patterns, I've came to realize that I'm believing in some kind of illusions and false realities thus I want to improve.

Things I'm trying to implement in my daily life: - LIFT ( been lifting on and off for some time, gradually trying to be more consistent) - Reading (been reading "Power of Now" for months, can't get myself consistent) - Meditation (downloaded Headspace, is a nice app, but stil I lack consistency, sometimes i just cant find the right spot/time to meditate)

Analyzing the lack of the success of implementing these new habits is only one conclusion with a question mark - How can i be more consistent?

Sidenote: I smoke pot everyday, sometimes many times in a day, the whole autumn i went kind of overboard with partying in the weekends, k-closed only one girl and abused a lot of molly. I feel a bit depressed and lack motivation/discipline. My game sucks, 'cause I see myself as a man who needs to get his shit together. My problem is that i want results over-night and for the least effort. I feel that my thought patterns, way of thinking and habitual lifestyle is complete wrong. how to make a 180 turn?

TL:DR - Lurking Blue-pilled guy, lacks discipline and consistency, looking for advice how to make a 180 turn and implement new and good habits.