I’ve been getting laid, mostly from tinder (already banged 7 girls this year). And I got 3 fwb. I’m getting a lot of attention from females so much so that it makes me uncomfortable, also getting a lot more shit tests. I dress/walk/talk like a player.

I don’t care about social circles/hierarchy because I’m doing fine at the moment, trying to revamp myself before I even get involved with people that way. But damn fam, I got people everywhere watching me, talking shit, trying to put me down.

I’m dealing with both positive reinforcement about my increasing smv which is making me super conceited and arrogant but also negative shit like random people shaking their heads when they see me, or laughing/sneering at me, it’s strange.

I’ve gone from a pussy to a somewhat above average okay dude in a matter of 5 years. Still got a lot to learn that I know for sure. Sometimes I just wanna shut down because of all the random bullshit I encounter.

Sometimes when I see girls watching me then they end up making fun of me yet still watching, I feel super arrogant, whereby whenever I walk pass them I just roll my eyes and look straight ahead, same goes for dudes.

Maybe I’m just going crazy, shit I don’t know. Sometimes I feel like such an outcast, fuck. This getting life handled shit and dealing with other humans is ridiculous.

Edit: this is how I feel everyday https://youtu.be/rEgtltrAON4