Ever have that one moment you relive constantly, and cant get it out of your, the one that got away in a sense, that one moment you had where you look back on it and you think of 20 different ways you could have approached the situation but you regret the fact that you didnt, that is me right now.

All i do is think of how i froze and it annoys me so much, its not even been a week and it tge thought wont leave me, i thiught i could have done better, and had so many opportunities, but alas i was afraid, i was petrified, thinking how i could ever live without you by my side, sorry sorry back to the story,

So im just out of college and i go to get my bus, as always the stop was packed but sure i was in no rush, the bus pulled up nd the crowd grew thin, less nd less people were there and i was towards the back end of the line, there was another bus to come in about 10 minutes so i could wait, i then spot this girl, casual in clothing, nose pierced, with the 3 piercings up the ear, incredibly good looking, and im just thinking wow.

Time goes by and the 2nd bus arrives, only for the bus driver to announce theres a certain amount of seats left and thats all he can take, again im in no rush i line up and who is beside me but the girl, i take out my phone which has a joker screensaver and in my perifferal i see her smile at the picture, so im thinkin she may like joker, she then takes out one earphone as she gets on the bus, only to hear the bus driver say that there are no seats just as she stepped up, we had to wait again,

At this moment i was chatting to a guy high, or drunk god knows jus chattin away about how the world tried to fuck you over, jus being nice yaknow yourself and she steps off nd glances over every now and again, the guy then brought up religion and i walked a way announcin nope once religion comes up im gone way to complex for a monday, she chuckles she smiles, and puts her hair over her ear, glancing at me again. Its at this point i begin to think she may think im cute or may like me who knows all i had to do was talk to her, she then TAKES HER EARPHONES OUT COMPLETELY almost expecting me to talk to her but i froze i couldnt do it, she seemed way to beautiful to be with a guy like me, i couldnt pluck up that courage to ask her and im gutted,

She couldnt wait for another bus so was picked up bwfore the bus came, i was thinking and thinking and thinking , oh ill sit near her on the bus ill do this that the other bring up all these convos on the bus bit she vanished, ive not seen her since and it pains me, if only i didnt freeze, i know shes in my college as i seen her student card but she was alone, it was such a perfect opportunity i dont know what she does who she is but i know my opportunity is gone