Everywhere I go, in all sorts of situations and relationships I always seem to find myself in the lower rank. Always second, never first. Always under someone else's thumb, never the one leading/in control. And I don't understand what is causing, what sort of behavior, what sort of mentality. It's something so deeply ingrained in me, to be a beta. To be a nice guy. I was raised by my mom, but I am not blaming that, it's just one piece of it. I keep doing this shit though and it's driving me nuts. All the time I get shifted into the position of being a servant for someone. Be in my mom, my friends, coworkers, girlfriends. Where did this come from and how do I stop it?