We are all still together, and the divorce is just something I’ve had on my mind, but never discussed. My stance has been - stick it out for the kids. Their mom, she’s a good person, but with her own mental health issues, and our overall differences, I don’t feel connected to her. Haven’t for most of our relationship. I tried stirring us towards couples counseling, we had one session.. it’s not taking.

I am truly terrified about what my kids would feel, how a divorce would hurt them, what my relationship with them would be like. Girls are 5 and 8 years old. And they are my life.

Logically I know many people go through it and come out ok (or better). I just get this intense anxiety thinking about it.

At the same time, I’m scared of living my life like this too. Is this all I get in this life? An unfulfilling, disconnected relationship?

No real point to this post. But making it is one of my first steps in starting to consider divorce as an option.

Both options (staying or leaving) are terrifying.