Back around 2 years ago i fell into this obsession with hating females. I was already decently radical right wing, mainly converted by memes and shit. At the time i was a very insecure teen boy who had an obsession with wanting to be female I couldn’t really scratch away. I found MGTOW initially as a way to help with my what I thought at the time ‘fetish’. The more i watched the more i started to enjoy this idea of a valid reason to not date females. I had a hard time being attracted to anything back then, the thought of having sex as a guy grossed me out. I thought i was asexual at the time.

I started watching more MGTOW and red pill content on youtube. Better bachelor, sandman, coach redpill among others. I had the whole ‘anti woke’ thing going on in the back of my mind. I would go on rants about how stupid women are to my friends looking back i was a complete tool. Mostly i would consume the content whilst playing a video game. The videos would become background noise.

I noticed i started becoming more right wing in all my beliefs. Mainly i hated trans people, gay people etc, but i also started taking on more conservative values unknowingly, i was just following the people i watched. I remember before realising i was trans, i did get turned off the content a little. I noticed they would find one random woman online and say shit like ‘all woman are like this’. But what broke the camels back was when the youtuber i respected the most better bachelor agreed with china for banning feminine men in media. I realised this is censorship of what they want not freedom of speech as a whole. I fell out with watching mgtow content.

Couple months later due to me becoming more accepting without those video’s, it didn’t take me long to come to the realisation that I’m actually a trans girl. After years of evidence back it up there’s actually nothing i wanted more. All that hatred i had before was also partially jealousy towards women. I kept subbed to better bachelor. He was such a chill dude but I remember after coming back to watch one of his video’s, i unsubbed. He is actually very hate-filled. Dunno what I expected from someone who hates 50% of the population.

My MGTOW phase lasted about 10 months to a year. I’ve been trans for a year at this point. I’m 17 for clarification. Occasionally i’ll run into someone who holds the same beliefs i used to. I think the only thing that’ll cure them is time unfortunately. No matter how much you beat them with facts. The urge to leave the group comes naturally. Or maybe some people just stay dickheads i have no idea.