Okay I'll try to keep this short. My dick is essentially broken due to hard flaccid (a severe pelvic floor cramp). I can't get hard enough or stay hard enough to fuck a girl, I've tried multiple times. Each time has led to embarrasment or just semi-limp blowjobs.

I have a plan set up to fix this based on months of research I have done on the topic. It's my last shot at fixing my sexual health and finally being able to have sex. Problem is, I'm in college and have a decent amount of opportunities to get with girls. I don't really try too hard but luckily I'm very masculine looking so I guess girls dig it. But I always tend to shy away as soon as things get sexual because I'm afraid I will continue to fail in bed and I don't want to be known as "that guy". On the flip side, I would like to recondition my brain so I can get hard with a real girl. I used to be a heavy porn user and suspect that's part of it too.

What should I do to find a girl who will be patient with my sexual struggles who won't go around telling all her friends about my limp dick? Should I go down on girls or something to keep them around? My full recovery may take months but I feel like I'm wasting my last year of college like I did the first 3 by simply sitting on the sidelines. Since reading TRP I tend to be too enlightened about the fact that girls gossip about everything that I say or do to them so I'm kind of paranoid about this.

Also, abstaining from PMO is part of my recovery process so I'm afraid I'll go crazy without a release. However, every time I climax my hard flaccid reverts back to square one so I truly can't PMO if I want to fully heal. How can I stay sane and release sexual energy without any physical release? My T levels are extremely high so I find myself getting irritable after a fews days of no PMO.

Thanks guys.