Hi, I'm a 25 yo high school dropout but I managed to get my GED equivalent last year. The problem is I had depression and anxiety since I dropped out and I stayed at home all the time. I've been lifting and going out more since I discovered trp 2 years ago but I'm still scared as fuck when confronting strangers.

I managed to land a job as a security guard 3 months ago but it was depressing as fuck because I had to work 12 hours and sometimes even 24 on busy days. The pay was shit as well. I quit after a month and I haven't gone out of my house since then because I felt like a pussy for quitting. The problem is, I'm also learning to code so I thought it's best to find a job that doesn't have me work all day and night because I need the energy to study. I've been contacting employers but they don't get back to me probably because I don't have anything interesting in my resume. One recruiter called me and asked me why I don't have any work experience which made me panic and I didn't know what to say, so I said it was for personal reasons. Never heard from her again.

I feel like I'm asking for too much and should stick to 12 hour jobs for now but idk, what do you guys think?