Hi all. I only had a couple of bfs till I moved to a large city for grad school at age 26. My bf was nowhere close to getting married and tbh wasn’t sure how strong I felt about him. We broke up and many months later I got introduced to a guy (A) who I tried to befriend but he wanted to date me - for a couple months I tried to date him, hooked up and ultimately ended it with him. Then his friends - 2 single guys (B and C) - reached out daily and wanted to continue hanging out with me and after 2-3 months I found myself attracted to them both. Dating in the city was quite useless also. And I was desperate to get married. I was starting to date one of them but I was still going on dates as somewhere I thought it’s a terrible idea to get involved with this group. and we ended up having a huge fight as I wasn’t ready to commit. Fully bought into the big city dating app culture. Friend C was hitting on me subtly the entire time. I made a terrible choice and I ended up having an inappropriate phone conversation with C in the early weeks during a rough fight (because I wasn’t sure I wanted to commit - to me dating at 28 meant getting married). Things blew up and all 3 guys lambasted me and called me a huge slut. It’s been 6 years since then and I’m still traumatized by my bad choices. How do I overcome. I apologized to everyone too