Long story short. Have an ltr for years now. Prior to her I slept with over 60 women. Used to cheat. She took me back. I Settled down. Stop cheating for a while got my personal life in order. Remained faithful and things were great ended up Moving in together .

I am high value, run the relationship like I should. She is drama free. Foreign. Cooks. Cleans. Low partner count. Sex whenever I ask. Adds tons of value to me. And we don’t fight or anything. And most of all Loyal as fuck.

Down the road a new worker comes into work. Fucking sexy girl. Started at flirted. Then pictures. Then sexting. Told myself. Don’t shit where I eat but Next thing i know I’m fucking her in the bathroom at work.

After spending time with the coworker she is the shit. Been about 6 months. Started as a plate. She knows about my ltr. The more time I spend the more I started to actually like her and I almost enjoy her more than my ltr. She’s even lower partner count (2) submissive as hell. The sex is insane. And I started catching feelings for her. Which I never do. Idk how it happened.

So I was just enjoying the ride with all this. If I got caught I’d deny it until I couldn’t then own my shit. But then I thought long term. The coworker asked if I could ever see myself actually being with her. And I said yea. So now I’m balancing these two. I’m not having any issues with it. They’re both happy.

But I have to stop and thinking how is this going to end? I can’t keep doing this because one of them is going to get hurt. But idk what the fuck to do. Right now I’m thinking I’d rather be with the coworker. But I’m afraid of her not being what I think she is. And realizing I fucked it up for a loyal as fuck girl. I can’t even sit and say my ltr and I have a bad relationship. We don’t. I like them both. I realize this is like male branch swinging. And I broke a lot of rules and fucked myself.

But I have no idea how to go about this. How to handle it. To keep it going. To admit what I’m doing. To leave. I’m at a complete mind fuck with it all. Any advice?