I met this girl while she was on Erasmus a year ago. We ended up together, seeing each other every 2 months as we live in two different European country. I really like and love this girl but at the moment I feel that I'm not I the right mental place because of this relationship.

I'm tired of seeing her every now and then.. This not a temporary LDR..the reality is that we are gonna always be separated..So I ask myself..where are we going? I'm 26 and at uni, she is 24 and at uni in her country, we can't even go to live together.. So what's the point?

I feel stressed and paranoid about her cheating to the point that I fucked another girl just to even the odds...it sounds so wrong..but that's the only way I could cope with this thought.

I really would like to keep this person in my life but the mental sacrifices required are too big considering that this is never going to become an LTR.

What to do? Plate her? How? I really need you here guys.