Long story short I had some battles with depression within the last couple of years and have never really returned totally back to normal. Still have a lot of feelings of inadequacy and insecurity even when there is no reason too. It’s irrational and I know it’s irrational and yet I can’t stop feeling the way I do.

When I drink though it’s different. I feel like my old self, very loose and talkative without any of the bullshit insecurity. It’s like night and day. People notice the huge difference too.

If I can do it drunk I can do it sober, but I fear my inhibitions will always hold me back unless I find a way to change my mindset.