High school senior here. Indian. 6.5/10. About 25% bf

I came to redpill about 3 months ago. I've never been with a girl before. I can't hold a conversation with a girl without my heart almost stopping. I don't want this to continue later in life and college

Being a complete beta newbie, I started from scratch and am focusing on myself (monk mode) right now - the next 6 months roughly before I head off to college

Right now I'm

On a diet (no sugar, no refined flour) Swim team Meditation NoFap Improving mindsets and unlearning wrong beliefs Reading every day Improving face and grooming

I'm working to make myself a better person every day.

But when I'm doing this, I come across pics of hot girls (not the models) across social media, in school, etc.

I always feel like I can't get them because they'd never choose me no matter how much I improve myself. I feel like my race makes me unable to compete. I feel like they'd look down on me and laugh at me while going to be with Chad. I feel inadequate and not good enough. I can't see myself getting them.

Am I right here? Does it get better? Will I be able to get the girl I want (the HB9 and 10) if I improve myself enough?

Anyone else go through someone similar and see if the grass is greener on the other side?