I go through cycles of being plugged and unplugged. I get spurts of oneitis and then at least one of the women I’m talking to gives me another glimpse of reality and I have an internal bitch fit and then I’m back at ground zero. I routinely get sad that I will never find love, lol.

My question is: how do I expedite this process? I hate feeling this. I don’t like being slightly surprised - or reminded, rather - of things I’ve forgotten about women’s nature.

I read that you have to go through a fucked up experience to really internalize TRP. I thought I did with my past, but I’m not really a smart guy. A slow learner.

How do I stop having feelings and wake the fuck up - completely? I want to be at peace with this so I can move on and make progress from the right place, not a half red, half blue faggot frame.