I always come back to these subreddits as if they'll change shit. As if someone will enlighten me. I know what I need to know. The discourse is useless. My height matters. My looks matter. My status matters. Shit everything fucking matters in this shit dice roll life. From the phone I use to the shoes I wear. From the fact that my parents never loved each other to how long I took to graduate college . I need to go full cope mode and forget about love.