that itself is very grief -ee- to write.

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he would buzz his hair. also likes a ton of alt right twitter and facebook stuff. hes 28 years old and so am i. i honestly am not able to comprehend much or really bear this. its unbearable honestly. this is sick and disgusting and you do know of course how red pilled alt right "chads" like to be hypocritical, watching porn, using porn websites, being misogynistic, narcissistic and overwhelmingly incapable of reflection.

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maybe it doesnt help that we met in a incredibly weird discord server named bombstrap.

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getting this off of my chest since im no longer really in touch with him or the people we would speak to where we met, or his family members or content creators we would follow in Youtube, here in exredpill. because i am in recovery from "being red pilled" and "based" and I do not enjoy all of these paintings in "Hitlers aesthetic" or "trad wifes" who are naked with their children in wheat fields. I am very tired of this fetishizing trad wives/ 50's style wives. These same "trad wives" types of girls you see on tiktok are so ironic and who have hundreds of men watch their content probably thinking of sleeping with her and of course, brushing her off afterwards because this entire movement has been all about 2 or less things: gratification/ fulfillment. But this fulfillment is utterly wasteful when you turn off the record button or upload your video finally... then find no meaning in that... then change your tab to porn sites