22 male here; I was brought up in a strongly religious family. I was forced to go to church every Sunday with my mom. Not physically but mentally. If I told her I didn't want to go she would mentally barrage me to near insanity, scream at me, tell me to 'fear god', that I'm a terrible child, and other kinds of sick verbal abuse that has left a deep scar that I'll never forget.

I try to forget about it but I can't. At the beginning of my adolescence I've grown depressed, I had no friends other than the friends at church, and I soon grew into it as there was no other choice. My parents were both stay at home parents and would work from home; I was always under their watch and command. Told to go to confession and communion and if I don't then I'm a terrible person.

I didn't realize I had a problem with it until I began to think for myself. It's funny how their want for me to become a religious man made me absolutely against it; I hate it, I'd rather be some Satanist freak then have to go through that all over again. It's like I have two personalities now; one that wants to be a good man and the other the Red Pill savage who wants to plunder every piece of pussy and destroy it.

I've become suicidal, depressed, and began to seek help from a professional. I'm on medication, my life is getting better, but I absolutely despise my parents. I told my mother I wanted to commit suicide and she told me "You will burn in hell if you do." What can be worse, the hell I'm living in now, or the hell when I kill myself. I just want to escape this madness once and for all. They control me financially and want me to live near them when I move out; I'd love to do the opposite. Move as far from them as possible.

I'm now socially inept, constantly being surrounded by religious people brought me a cultural shock as you would say; as well as browsing the RedPill. I didn't realize all the kids were out banging broads and partying while I was sitting down in church school praying to some imaginary man to help me reach salvation.

If you recommend Christian Mingle fuck off.