Seen some guy posting about being a mentalcel and that shit is so real, i classify my self as a real mentalcel and i have a situation from yesterday that will show what it looks like. I am scared of any woman that shows any type of feelings / intimacy or interest towards me. I immediately feel uncomfortable and don't know how to react, i just want to move away from the situation.

Last night i was at a party at a bar, there was a lot of people there. I was with a few people that i know from work. Just sat there drinking, talking shit and whatever else. I got up and went to order more drink for my self and literally as i made my way to the bar i made eye contact with a woman only cus i realised that she was looking at me, i walked and she smiled at me, i smiled back and for some reason just said 'whats up? ' it just came out, at this point im stopped facing her and shes facing me, she then says 'Just wanted to say you look really nice' whilst coming closer to me and puts her hand on my chest and says' wow youre really tall'. Immeditaly i am feeling nervous, i dont know what to do or say. i just replied 'yea thats true' and i think at that point she either realised that im some weirdo or just not interested cus she just gets her hand off me, stands there and not saying anything. this probably lasted for like 5-10 seconds of silence and then i said 'okay well im going to go now, enjoy yourself, and she said 'ye thanks you too'. And that was it. I dont know her name, dont know nothing about her.

Now imagine if i wasn't a mentalcel and had the ability to lead the conversation and wasn't some bitch. It wouldn't have turned awkward and instead would have returned the compliment or something and maybe something could have happened. I dont know why but i can talk to woman normally but as soon as i can sense some type of interest coming from them, i get anxious, defensive and just want to move away. I kind of feel bad about this situation but at the same time i dont care? When it comes to me showing any type of interest etc, then thats just something i am unable to do, as much as i want to i think its just a defense mechanism or something, cus seriously even if i am attracted to someone then what just happened would be 10 times worse cus i wouldn't have said anything, i would have just ignored them.

a few times when i was out touching grass i had a similar situation happen. A month ago i got approached on the street by a woman and i outright told her to 'move the fuck out my way' thats how defensive i get and how much i wanted the situation to just end.

Mentalcelpill is real. Unless you know how its like its probably something you cant comprehend.

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