Ended up orbiting a now (thank God) ex-oneitis for a couple of months. Tried stepping out of the friendzone and got put back in my place. Decided to be honest with myself so I just avoided actively seeking out her friend circle. Unfollowed her feed on Facebook.

It was about a month later that she appeared in recommended friends on snapchat... I just add everybody I know on it, she ends up blocking me. This is when I came to a realization. The feeling, the empty void caused was just so cancerous that I had to cut all ties. Even when unfollowed she would still show up from time to time in comments on my wall. Blocked and avoided contact ever since.

This week she wasn't at school but I'm just a bit afraid of the social fallout that might follow... We do take some classes together. I meditate, employ mind policing tactics and game other girls and she's not on my mind, but whenever I see her everything sidebar goes out the window. I just feel that void again, despair and the sharp sting of failure... Something tells me that my 17-year-old brain has made a stupid mistake. Any advice on this?