Hallo, a few weeks (or mouths) i made a post about a situation in my work place. A woman who cheated on his boyfriend and ended up with a piece of shit. A lot of ypur commemts make a lot of noise inside me, wich i'm grateful for it. At the end i choose to stay away from that place (i usted to work in a table dance) it was hard because a lot of those girls are a good friends, however i don't want to be invested in that place no more.

During this time i would reflect why i liked this ideology, maybe the feeling i can be like them? Maybe the hope someday i will be like one of those folk who goes there, spend all money and having any girl, even if it is fake?, I will be loved if i make a lot of money? Maybe if im such alpha male people don't go of my side? Maybe because when i wanted to date/or having a relationship with someone i always ended up like a best friend without knowing it?, Maybe because i feeling inferior to those folk.... it doesn't matter if is a girl or boy, i will feel inferior to them because i've no live so much in my life. Or at least not like the other ones.

This situation and the post make me a huge wake up call, because at the end, maybe i'm living my best life in this moment. How? You could say.

1st: i'm in time to chance my belifs about life. Not at all are black and white and people are complex.

2nd: i still have the most important persons in my life. My mom, granny and Dad. And a lot of exterior help, to say so.

When i worked there, a lot of folk go out to respond calls. somentimes was a family member, or his son/daughter or his wife. These "high vale man/women" was spending his money and time in that place.... i take a lot of time to see this, in my case that is what make see what i have in my home for this moment.

3rd: its fine if i will not live so much in this moment, i mean a lot of people of my age had children by accident, getting arrested, begin in abusive relationships.... maybe i'm lucky. Or not. Idk.

And 4th: nobody owns me nothing and in the same way, i dont own nothing to nobody. Yeah , i feel inferior to another Boys because they always ended with his crush and me? Well ended up like his friend. Even if i go in the straight way. Or knowing them first and then asking out. It doesn't matter. But it is part of the life. Maybe one day someone love me. Or not and ended up with a lot of good friends.

Thank you. I will wait for your comments.