So like the title says I’m an 18 year old virgin, who’s only had two kisses that happened last month.

That same girl kinda pulled back from me so I’m doing the same and realizing how trash I am when I comes to women. I’m early high school I got very close to losing my virginity but just bitched out and I hate myself for it.

Like this is my first year of being kinda attractive, I workout, focus on my career and skills and just hustle. In high school I was called the ugliest guy in the world and people said I’ll never have a girlfriend and I’ll remain a virgin so I’ve done a lot of self improvement to prove them wrong and even some of them call me attractive now.

Like what is wrong with, why can’t I be like everyone my age going to parties, drinking, having sex and king drugs. All I do is just go to the gym and study computer science…. and just focus on scholarships. I feel like I’m wasting my life not doing what most people are doing

I’m going to college soon so hopefully I have the change to lose my virginity and stop feeling like a loser. Is it bad that I’m still a virgin right now? Everyone says it doesn’t matter but it’s almost like a chip on my shoulder now just to prove the world wrong.