Basically, after typing this too many times, I get put in position, I set myself up for great hook ups, and then I bail. Im funny, Im witty, very charming, girls think I look good in my beard and long hair; I set them up. But I fail to knock them down. Once I realize I've made it to the threshold of possibility I pull back and I feel like this confuses them. I quit looking at the ladies, or I will stop talking and being so flirty because I don't want them to find out how much of a loser I really am.

I don't have a job, I am still in college and share a room with 3 other asian fellows so I never have the intention of bringing anyone "home". I don't have any hobbies that I partake in, especially in Austin this is a gimme. No friends, I think I'm depressed, I tap too often, have trouble getting and staying erect so I kind of fear sex too. I'm getting flabby and when I gain weight my man boobs set in and they ruin all my tight fitting t shirts. That leads to clothes, I wear gym clothes mostly because they are comfy and let me breath, but this is not stylish. Then when I wear my limited nice clothes that I brought when I moved, it looks like Im going to the governors ball. So my wardrobe prohibits me from feeling comfortable.

Girls and people say I look exotic. And with my long hair and beard and killer smile and eyes this leads to lots of intrigue and I play on that easily but then I fail to stay back and talk to these women enough to convince them to at least give me a hug or something. Not sure what the meaning of this post is but I hope someone has some sort of general advice or words of wisdom. Thanks in advance.