I have a bunch of hang ups about doing anything after getting a number. I don't always approach but when I do I get a number but never call/text. In fact, I'm now at a point where I don't ask for a number at all..even though I like the girl.. Every time after getting a number I realize I have nothing to offer the girl and that I don't have my shit together at all. I'm good at seeming like the type of a guy girls would like. I seem confident and like I have my "shit together"..but it's not true.

My problem is I can't really offer the girl anything, emotionally, in terms of personality, or physically...so I'm really unsure as to where to start/what to do.

In terms of success...I'm unsuccessful in life and do pretty much nothing. I don't have a job, I go to school and I'm doing pretty terribly I have no idea what i'm majoring in or what to study, and I lived a sheltered life(strict parents) so I haven't done anything or gone to parties or traveled. I have almost no life experience. I'm poor and my family is poor, I can't do much. getting a job soon though. So there's that.

In terms of being physical, I can't offer sex because I've never had it..so I can't pleasure her. Also, my conservative parents cant know so we have to keep everything a secret, I can't take her home to have sex(no logistics), and I have to keep the whole thing low key. I'm also pathetically weak..and I'm self conscious..about the whole thing, like telling her, and preforming well, my body..etc

In terms of emotional experience, I also have very little..I've never been in a relationship or loved anyone.

I just feel like an inexperienced teenager that hasn't gone through life, and I'm embarrassed about it.

I can't offer a particularly fun date because I'm not sure where to go. I've never been on a date.

It just feels like I have a ridiculous set of obstacles...all these problems flow in my head when considering a date, "If I can't offer a girl sex, myself, or even a fun date..what's the purpose of calling her? There's no point..."

So I get the number, and just never text her.

After going on two dates with a girl she offered to come over.. I was too worried about telling her about my lack of experience/too self conscious about my body so I stopped talking to her.

I don't have my shit together and I don't think I ever will, it's all interconnected..and getting a good job/degree is going to take me years....

At the same time, I'm incredibly fucking lonley and I want so badly to connect with someone deeply..on an emotional and physical level...I lay at night thinking about finding that ONE girl