Hi everyone. I felt something really weird this time. I have always been unlucky. 24 years old never had a girl, never had sex blah blah... yea thats me.

Anyway i decided to change that but never was successful. I mean i did hit the gym, did public speaking and everything for building my confidence. But when the first girl ever rejected me, i sat in my car for an hour thinking what the fuck... Yesterday the 9th girl rejected me .. and here's the weird thing. I WAS WAITING FOR HER TO SAY NO and after she said no i just went about doing my work and changed the subject .. and she seemed sorta weirded out how i reacted i guess.

I dont understand .. Have i hit some new ground ? I was already thinking of how to go about this and where can i find a better girl. I have never been a club person. I never understand how people do it. Neither am a PUA just looking for a relationship. But is this natural ? I mean who likes getting rejected ? and i did. I am feeling i fucked up somewhere ...