background: ive been reading trp books & knowledge since november 2017. been to scared to put any of it into action until now.

Met up with a girl tonight that I messaged & got her number about a week ago. When I initially asked her to hang out (about a week ago) she said she couldnt her roommate was there. I said ok no problem. Forgot about her. She texts me tonight to come over. So I did. i said i wanted to fuck her in tinder message. our convo was extremely brief.

I get there ring doorbell and almost as soon as I get inside I say hey with a hug. She almost immediately tells me that she is nervous and hasnt done it in a while. I tell her to show me her bedroom. Girl tells me okay, we go into her bedroom. i havent had sex since i was 16. im 23 now. had sex a handful of times with a fat girl i met off tinder a few months ago but this girl i met tonight was at least decent looking. about a 8 in her pics but in person she was a 6. cute still a little chubbier than her pics but noticeable in clothes so im just as nervous.

it sucks but i couldnt get it up easy. she blew me i ate her out. i felt stupid because i couldnt get it up and i think at one point she sighed... so i ate her out for a little bit. eventually i got it up and fucked her missionary for a couple minutes. couldnt cum. eventually got soft inside her. sex was shitty as fuck lasted about 15 mins. afterwards she told me she usually isnt this bad. i was going to leave so i put on my clothes and then i sat on the bed next to her, she was still naked. i said fuck it i may never see her again so if i look dumb af i dont care ill just stay here and test myself a bit. we got back in bed. im laying in bed and she puts her head on my chest and i embrace her. we talk for a little bit and at this point im more relaxed. im joking with her, still touching her. im talking with her & shes asking me about myself, where im from, where i work. she told me initially that i had to leave at 9:30 when 9:30 comes around i say something like hey you lied you said your roommate was coming back and she said its fine i can stay longer and that she told her roommate about me and that she was nervous but her roommate kind of egged her on to invite me over.

i didnt tell her where i worked. im a small service business owner and i dont want these girls knowing that i a business (could potentially write bad reviews, whatever...) so she keeps guessing... asks if im an fbi agent, if im in the military. at one point she just flat out says you dont have a job. and i joke about watching netflix on my cardboard tv i drew (we were talking about shows). after i say lets watch some tv. so we watch tv and i ask her to get me some water. she comes back and puts her legs on me (im feeling weird about this... like wtf is she using me as a stool) at one point during the show we watch she says i look uncomfortable and i just say no im really into the show. were talking and everything seems pretty good, im talking to her like ive known her for a while. conversation is fine. i leave after the show because this is the first time weve met i shouldnt stay here for long like im her boyfriend or a friend. i say im gonna head out we should hang out again. i get up and hug her before i leave but didnt want to kiss her.