Where do I find this?

~~Trying to get myself into the abundance mentality. But I am far too picky and every girl who's somewhat close to ideal, it's oneitis time. I'm learning how to cut my losses, but the next step is.. where do I find someone else I would even bother with? I'm 19 making 70k, kindof a badass, no drugs no alcohol. It is impossible to find one who is NOT a golddigger. It's impossible to find a straightedge girl. It's impossible to find one of these girls that doesn't want me to sit down and listen to her cry. I'm trying to have fun and I'm trying to stay classy. My inner game is sound, I'm quite aware that nobody within 30 miles of here is doing as well as me at 19, and I'm pretty sure if I found a girl that was "good enough," i'd have no problem. I put more girls in the friendzone than girls put me in. It's impossible for me to tell myself there's plenty more fish in the sea when I can't find the sea.~~

EDIT: Ignore the above post. I sound like an asshole. Here's what I meant to say:

I'm trying to get myself into the abundance mentality. But I am far too picky and every girl who's somewhat close to ideal, it's oneitis time. I'm learning how to cut my losses, but the next step is.. where do I find someone else I would even bother with?

I like to think of myself as someone who's desirable. I'm clean, classy with a hint of redneck and a bit of nerd.. and what I'm trying to say here is my inner game is sound, I'm quite aware that nobody within 30 miles of here is doing as well as me at 19, and I can't think of one person I know who wouldn't want to be me in some way. I don't really act so THAT confident, but that's what goes through my head and I'm trying to stop holding back. I'm pretty sure if I found a girl that was "good enough," I'd have no problem following through. I thought I found one, but that got complicated so I bailed (therefore "cutting my losses," as well as cutting off contact with other girls I've had a thing for in the past) Anyways, at this point it is impossible to find one who is NOT a golddigger. It's impossible to find a "clean" girl. It's impossible to find one of these girls that doesn't want me to sit down and listen to her cry. I'm trying to have fun and I'm trying to stay classy. I don't want to bang 20 chicks fast, I just want to make a girl that I want.. want me. Right now I put more girls in the friendzone than girls put me in. It's impossible for me to tell myself there's plenty more fish in the sea when I can't find the sea.