So, I’m currently a senior in high school and this past summer I discovered the Red Pill, it’s completely changed me from the inside and out. It helped me realize how much of a socially awkward, immature, and annoying person I was. For example, for my past years of high school I was pretty much a loser in all aspects. One of the things I would do is I would tell non stop, immature jokes, I thought it would make people like me, but I realize now how annoying it was. I would also brag about how I was a “Hacker” when really all I could do was basic programming. (And I wondered why I couldn’t get a girlfriend lol). Apart from that I couldn’t really have an adult conversation with anyone, I was basically a 6th grader in a high schooler’s body. And to top it off I was also overweight, but I was so delusional I thought I was healthy. Somehow I managed to have friends, don’t ask me how lol. I always struggled with relationships, especially dating. (Go figure)

I got really depressed once I realized high school was almost over and I never really got to do anything I wanted to do. I started to hate myself but I wasn’t sure what was wrong with me. That’s when I found the red pill, I dedicated my summer to eating healthy, working out, and learning social skills. I managed to go from fat to having abs in about 3 months.

I’m now realizing how much I’ve wasted of high school, I never had a girlfriend, I’m obviously still a virgin lol. The weird part is that it never occurred to me how socially awkward I was until now. Not sure how I didn’t notice. I feel a lot of regret, theres a lot of relationships that could’ve been a lot better, a lot of dates that never happened, I feel like I’ve wasted all of my teen years.

Today I actually have a girlfriend, socialize on a regular basis, and I’m doing all the things I wanted to do. But the regret is eating me away, some people still see me as a cringy nerdy kid.

There’s some people, and girls that I want to reconnect with, a lot of them are in college now which is why I feel it’s too late.

What should I do now? Just move forward like I was always this way? How should I deal with the regret? Is there any point in trying to reconnect with people? If so, how can I do it?

Any advice is appreciated