Basically, I was a complete beta. Found TRP, went through a massive SMV upgrade in my late teens, through Muay Thai/Lifting/a massive growth spurt that took me to 6'4, and upgrading clothes and grooming, etc.

So I went from invisible to visible. A few fat girls openly threw themselves at me in school, a few pretty ones gave me IOI, I never went for any of them because I was a pussy.

Then I met an HB8 and instantly fell in love with her because she was the first hot girl to ever validate me. She was my first everything, and I went through a rough stretch of being very possessive with her because I didn't want to lose her. She was everything I thought I wanted in a girl.

Life happened, and she had to move. Before she did, we broke up and she said she wanted to move forward as "friends". So I said "No worries" while internally fuming. Blocked her on all social media, kept her # unblocked though.

It's been 1 month, and I'm still in a tailspin. I keep myself busy with school, work, training but every free moment I have, my mind goes straight to her. Without fail, hundreds of times per day, something happens that will remind me of her. I feel like an addict

I'm not worried about other girls now because I feel like I'm at a point SMV wise where I can get others in the future once I get my mind right. But the thing is, my mind is so bent out of shape. I feel needy for her, I miss the intimacy and feel super lustful for her, like she is a real life extension of porn.

Its annoying and I'm trying to not be a bitch and stay focused but its fucking hard man. I dont know what else I can do. Anyone else dealt with stuff like this? Could use some help