Hi there,

I was watching Jordan Peterson's videos the other day, (this one especially - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NX2ep5fCJZ8). Additionally, I read Michaels story again, and I resonate with everything he said.

I was a former Big Man on Campus Athlete, the one who banged all the girls. Since leaving college I feel nothing but alone and missionless lacking the meaning of life and why I purely am living. I go to work for a job I could not care less about and see girls just date dickhead and ass hole. I am a nobody at this point, but I work hard and I am a good guy. All the money I get, I invest, but I don't see my future or mission.

I feel lonely to the point that I am starting to think this hurts to actually go on everyday, or maybe, that blessing I had of receiving all the attention and girls in the past is now a curse because it will never be the same.

Hating the location I live in this big city in Europe, socially lacking friends, slaving away from 9-6 everyday, exhausted by the end of the week, how is this real life? How is this fun? How is this even... mediocre to the point that I dont mind doing it... it's not. Its the opposite. It's gotten to the point where I prefer to be alone, prefer to be by myself. Unsure of where I want to live, but linking my happiness with my previous happiness of being in America, I crave that life I had..

Missionless, alone, and fully aware young girls are going to college opening up their legs.