I’m blue pill as hell. Weak, skinny, insecure, but I am willing to adapt and get the fuck out of hell. I try to be red pill but just don’t know what to do. For example, I keep reverting back to red pill ways, I’ll do my homework straight for a week then get burnt out. Possibly because (40 hour job and high school)

What do I do? Why am I always so nervous around woman? I’ve been doing weight training for two months why are there no gains? I keep bouncing off and on, I’m starting to lose it. Any advice? Should I just sidebar everyday until I live and eat red pill.

EDIT: how do I kill this damn nice guy in me?